As of lately

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He totally provides.

I swear that you don't have to go; I thought we could wait for the fireworks

I've totally been throwing myself into my music lately, it's kind of nice. I've missed playing,
I feel like myself. It's a nice change of pace, I don't really understand why everything's been going the way it has. But with music, when I play, it pauses. Just for three or four minutes, time stands still and it's me and my lyrics. I've always been better at writing lyrics rather than stories. They are my stories, but they're for myself. At least that's how it's been, but then I posted a few of my songs online, and after getting a good reaction, I've been meaning to post more. It's just very time-consuming but I wish I would spend more time on it. Its just when I sit down to play, or write, I realize there's homework I have to do and my room could be cleaner. Or it's late and I should sleep. Or my parents need me. Or my brother's knocking on my door every three minutes. It's exhaustinggg. But I missed music. It's always kind of been my life. I regret losing it these past few months.

In other news, life is hard. People let me down, I'm super stressed.

Music & Jesus, totally my life right now.

I swear that you don't have to go; 
I thought we could wait for the fireworks,
I thought we could wait for the snow.

Photoshoot- Jenny

Life

I never know what will happen tomorrow. Heck, sometimes I don't even know what's happening today. But I do know this- Life happens, and then you die. That's it. You can either focus on living, (In the moment, for today, the way you want) or you can focus on where you're going. Because I'm going to die. That's a fact. But not everyone really lives. So it's up to you. There's where you've been, where you are, and where you're headed.

If you live in your past, you lose sight of the right now, of the moment.
If you "live in the moment," you might miss the bigger picture.
So pay attention to where you're going.

Instead of running from your past, run towards the future. Or walk. Or skip. Or frolic. Whatever makes you happy. Because yeah, life is yours to live. But think of Who gave you life, before you decide what you give your life to.

You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind.

three months left.
in 2011.
three. months.
I don't even know how to comprehend that.
High school is gonna be over soon.
I don't understand.

I have no idea what to do next.

Lately;

Lately it's almost as if I'm avoiding something. I don't even know what it is.

Lately I don't know what's going to happen, and I understand I'm not supposed to, it's just that I need a little direction; I feel lost.

Lately I've listened to a lot of rap music,

Lately I eat out too much.

Lately I can't tell what you're thinking, and it drives me crazy.

Lately I fell as if I'm not smart enough, and that everyone knows it.

I guess all in all I'm happy, right?

But lately I'm wondering if by chasing happiness, I'm just chasing my tail.

I don't get itttt.